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It’s easy to say, ‘stay strong and keep on going’. But, more often than not, it’s not that easy. Every day and every night, I toss and turn, wondering about my life. Every day and night, I daydream of better days to come. Sadly enough, every day and night, I realize that those better days or just for naught. It’s easy to sit here thinking, ‘I’m strong, I won’t break’. But then I get up, watch my reflection, and wonder; is it really that easy? Because each time I say I won’t break, only seconds later, another thought follows. It’s weaker in construction, yet stronger in impact.

The mask by phoenixrebirth88, literature

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The mask

They say the jester, the clown. They say the loveable idiot who can make them forget. They say it's here and not to forget. I say, it's not it, but a mask. What is hidden is unknown to them, And yet, unknown to me as well. One build so well, that you lose yourself in it. Like the dark can blind a person, Or like the silence can make one deaf. Drowning in the past, present and future. The world isn't where it lived, but breaths and exist. A dream, not in the mortal realm, But in the non-existing one. A misery that's no one's pain, A happiness that's no one's gain. Wanting to trade places with one of the past, Breath in

I'm lost ... by phoenixrebirth88, literature

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I'm lost ...

I'm lost … Is this what it feels like? A dark hazy cloud that you can't see past? A life without end or matter? A world that feels wrong? People that don't understand? I'm lost and I don't know when I'll find myself. I'm lost and I fear that I'll always be so. I'm lost and if I'm honest … … I'm afraid of the journey to find myself … Is this what it should be like? Is this how it will end? Is there better out there? Is there more to me, for me than I see? Is there more than I realize? I'm lost and I'm afraid … The list keeps growing and I can't stop myself. The darkness inside is too strong. No f

I am me ... by phoenixrebirth88, literature

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I am me ...

I am who I am. It's easy to accept it and if you can't deal with it, then don't. No one is forcing you to. Just leave, turn your back to me and let me be. It's easy. Many have done it before you, so why do you insist on staying and inflicting more pain on my already wounded soul. All you do is say 'you can't do this' or 'you should do that'. Don't change me, it's useless. I won't listen. I won't pretend to even try. Too long have I done so and too long have I suffered from it. I hid who I was from you, my family and the entire world. No more I say! It has maimed me far beyond my knowledge. Far more than I'm willing to admit. Don't laugh in

A once smiling child by phoenixrebirth88, literature

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My tree atop the cliff

I can't help but hate the memories deep inside. The past makes who you are, but sometimes I wish I had a different past. Forgiving those that caused me harm, 'no problem' I say, but letting go is hard. Sometimes I see a forest, colors all around. A forest that is alive and filled with sound of all things breathing. Somewhere in this forest, there is a cliff so high. The view from atop this cliff, you can't imagine how nice. The treetops are moving with the wind and birds flying above. But on this cliff, on which I stand, is a tree lovelier than those at which it looks down. A rarity between its kind, it stand alone but with so much pride. B

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Hey, I'm phoeniexrebirth88
I know it's a mouthfull so just call me phoenix and we're even.
Anyway I'm a 27 year old girl and I live in Belgium.
I love anime, especially gundam wing and yu yu hakusho. I love the english and Japanese language, though I can't speak Japanese as fluently as I would want. I am getting better though. I'm studing a language and region at college right now, and guess what country I am studing? Yep, Japan! Aint life great? :p
My current hobby is Wushu (or better known as kungfu) but I practice the baji form. I love it because for the first time in my life, I can work out every type of frustration I feel. ^^
I'm currently in college (and for how long still, is very negotionable and dependable on various factors that I'm too lazy to sum up here), but most of the time I'm bored out of my mind...

Current Residence: Belgium
Favourite genre of music: everything but metal
MP3 player of choice: i audio
Favourite cartoon character: Kurama
Personal Quote: I can't go to hell. Satan still has that restraining order against me.

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Kamenashi Kazuya

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pride & prejudice

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Hana Yori Dango

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KAT-TUN / Nickelback

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romans

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Jane Austin

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all things that aren't realistic ^^

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phoenixrebirth88

Nov 28, 2015

A glorious day

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Today I received some amazing news. As all of you know I’m studying Japanese. Next year I’ve decided to study a year abroad (aka in Japan). It’s been a long wait for my university to decide who is allowed to go where, but today that long awaited list was finally posted and I’m allowed to go to my number one choice: a university in Kyushy. The only downside is that it’s a women’s only university, but then I’ll just have to go to town a lot to get my daily dose of man spotting ;)

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phoenixrebirth88

Oct 20, 2013

Devious Journal Entry

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How do you know when you have to fight, and how do you know when you're reaching your limits? WHen do you stand your ground, never give up; and when do you throw in the towel? I'm ready to quite, to call it a day. I'm ready to say 'to hell with it all!' But deep down inside, I know it's not meant to be. Because I'll never be a quitter. Through marrow and bone, I'll fight to survive. Through rainy days and thunderous nights. I'll hold on to that with childish arms, never to stop, to breath or pause. Because, if you break, you'll fall apart. But down here with me, my teddybear sweet, holds on to me with eyes that plead: Never give up, never

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phoenixrebirth88

Mar 11, 2013

One of those days

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There are days I don't understand why I bother. Days were I scold myself and order myself to stop thinking too much, to just close my eyes and sleep. There are days I stop believing tomorrow will be better and that there's nothing I can't handle.  There are days I feel like I'm the only sane one in the room, or maybe that's just because no one else sees the world like I do. Whatever the case, the fact is , that there are days I don't understand myself anymore. Sometimes, I lie awake at night, thinking about a way to solve this situation. I always come up with nothing but a small headache. Then, as morning comes, I find myself hoping today wi

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TheRealPetron

Sep 24, 2015

Thank you very much for your fav on Numb!

phoenixrebirth88

Sep 25, 2015

You're more than welcome. It is an amazing piece of work.

TheRealPetron

Sep 25, 2015

Well I'm glad you like it

AsstrOo

Sep 23, 2015

_{finally i found you hun ;-;}

phoenixrebirth88

Sep 23, 2015

Yeah, you did.

So happy to have you on board here

AsstrOo

Sep 23, 2015

_{OMG

its like ;-;

I'm crying right now
I was following since 2009
when freedom of speech was shut down
and I thought that I will never read your stories again ;-;
then I found

OMG ;-;

I read the bodyguard
because of bullet
and more

so please re submit it again}

phoenixrebirth88

Sep 24, 2015

Where are you reading? Luna or Gotvg? I don't update frequently on Luna because I'm always cued for so long a time, but on Ghost of the Vanguard (gotvg) I'm a validaded author so things go much quicker and I have more stories posted there.

Because of a bullet is currently on hold, though I really should start writing for it again ^_^'
The bodyguard ... Hehe, to be honest, I kind of forgot I had written that one :3 ... I'll try posting it on gotvg again real soon. Promise

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